Sunday, July 31, 2005

Feeling all so melancholic now. Stupid emotions running my life again. Being idle is not good. Anyway studying today was really lousy. i was so sick and tired so i decided to go home get my boots and play soccer with the church guys. Even more disappointing. Couldnt barely get 2 teams. 5v5 is no fun, seriously it is so dead. Coupled with the sorching sun, it really made all our legs dead-weight. Anyway, later some malays came over to join us. They were trying to make a fool out of us and i think they succeeded. I really hate it when people try to have an exhibition match. And they confirm play sepak tekraw. But at least i kept it inside. did lash out at anyone. On the way back, i was humming the tune of 3 doors down - here without you. Sial la, some reservoir of memories came back pulling me back into that abyss that i can from. But im fine now, maybe just a sense of regret. But life's full of it.

The hardest thing to find is joy.

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Friday, July 29, 2005

I think school is going to be my second home from now on. Planning to study mondays, tuesdays and thursday in school till about 930 or 10 and i'll execute the plan. By next week i'll master physics! Radioactivity, logic gates, circuits and kinematics will be just a thing of the past. Then math and hist elec will take the mantle/mandate. More plans to be planned soon. But i can tell that my studying plan will take its toil on my health. Already feeling the tiredness. Anyway, today was pretty okay. Maybe only assembly was a darn joke. " some of you all are even sportsmen and leaders." Eh please la, obviously referring to me. And during a period, "spend the whole night doing the sbq" thanks ah. At least i tried to be punctual and be hardworking so that i could meet the supposed deadline. Would've been nice to said sorry to. Like the times when i have to apologise when i pangseh. Nevermind matter aside, todays lesson was really good. Learnt alot about sbq. Stupid usefulness questions. I still have some doubts about it though. Not too clear about what to do.

Anyway, my physics is improving! Finally i can get a decent range of 29-31 when i do mcq. and i now can do paper2. My tuition teacher is really a wonder. He is so good at making the most difficult question seem easy and makes you understand it.

I feel really happy now (:

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Monday, July 25, 2005

oh man, im sick again. My mucus is sticky and somehow is trying to strangle the life out of me. Really shouldnt have played on sunday against sji old boys. Even though it made me feel abit better after the match, i started feeling the strain again at night. And stupid la, i stayed up to do SS work just to go to school to find out in the morning that khoo isnt doing it after school and that he's doing hist on wednesday so that means another late night for me on tuesday because i have to finish up my lit prose by tonight. That doesnt really spell a good few days for me.and judging by my studying programme. I have alot of physics and a math to complete this week. A few papers here and there and some topical assessments. Eh, my physics tuition topical worksheets SG(super good) sial. Anyway today some debra came to my school to give a presentation for the UWC scholarship. She stood there and stood there. Literally. Some lucky hongxuan.

MY GOODNESS, chelsea is owning ac milan. Chelsea is some finance machine that is really spoiling the balance of football. Okay time for me to go, i have my lit essay to finish.

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

I call you when I need you,
my heart's on fire You come to me,
come to me wild and wild
When you come to me
Give me everything I need
Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams
Speak a language of love like you know what it means
And it can't be wrong
Take my heart and make it strong baby
You're simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone,
anyone I've ever met
I'm stuck on your heart,
and hang on every word you say
Tear us apart, baby I would rather be dead
In your heart I see the star of every night and every day
In your eyes I get lost,
I get washed away
Just as long as I'm here in your arms
I could be in no better place

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

http://soccernet.espn.go.com/feature?id=337283&cc=4716


Oh my goodness, please go and read that page and read all about the life-threatening injuries soccer can give you. A broken fibula and tibia, as well as severe knee and ankle ligament damage. Sial la, no more career and all due to a single tackle. Hakeem go gym tomorrow. Please message me if you're going okay?

5 more weeks to prelims. Some rumour going on that prelims might be pushed forward to the september holidays and that spells major trouble. Disaster i tell you. And i hate speech day, why is it so late? And i got this threat that if we dont go, our testimonials will be screwed. Oh we had racial harmony day today. It was really really a waste of time. The only reason i came today was because of chemistry pract. My pract sucks. My titration i did 5 times! over and over again. And i hope my QA didnt get messed up by my fat fingers.

National track and field was fun. It has always been only that the atmosphere wasn't brimming with excitement as compared to last year. It was damn disappointing too. We were sitting beside ac and sji. They all sad sial. Kena owned, pawned, dominated by our cheers. When they start some cheer we dominate them with our cheers. drown their meek cheers. And please la, sit us beside some more fierce competition. and the sji kids were doing this 1_1 to the st nick girls la. anyway if you dont know what 1_1 is, ask me. Oh i saw abigail run. and i saw the other abigail from sng and syen saw nicole. Saw a few other friends too. Xuan and Co. came back. lucky balls. They really helped to liven up the atmosphere. the huang fei hong cheer seriously damn hilarious. They went crazy after awhile and started to throw the packets of stuff over to sji. Kudos to ronghua man. He really is a inspirational captain not by words but by his actions. He is my champion runner. Known him since sec1 and he is still humble,modest and determined even though he knows he is the best. And once again, Victoria School manages to beat independent schools like ac and ri. We beat sji too. sad sials. HCI must come down one year man. Hopefully it will be soon.

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Monday, July 18, 2005

The day of infamy. results are not as good as i expected. Hope im on the right track. I really need help. I dont know whether i should approach mr tan for help. anyway, the most shocking was edwin. He failed really quite a number of subjects, reduced him to tears. crazy balls.

Anyway to drown our sorrows, syen, zhao,harry and me went to sakae sushi for some buffet. 60 plates!! So full. could barely move. my stomach was like sooo big. Anyway another shocking thing was that i saw sarah today. Dont think she went school, but thats besides the point. I have a hunch that she smokes. I saw her with her boyfriend. hilarious to syen, but not to me. i just hope she comes out fine and wakes up. Okay, i bought Love Actually VCD. Oh my goodness,
the guy is so sweet. sincere and in love. His video of keira knightley, card message to her. He is so unbelievably sweet. Sounds like some syen.

Zhao, the anonymous on ruth's blog is getting on my nerves. really. I dont want to tag there anymore.

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

I've been so sick these few days, some irritating nose that keeps frustrating me.. So when i sneeze i'd just hold my nose and keep it in. Somehow my chest hurts. This is very scary. Somemore like when i breathe i dont fill like got enough air going in like that. I think im going to die like that, and like any moment when im playing soccer or running. I could just collapse, fall into a coma and die. And i sometimes i wonder if i die, would i be forgotten by the people i love..

Anyway on the bright side, it was my grandparents birthday, actually my grandfather. It was really quite a nice 2 and a half dinner. I discussed with my cousin about body hair, he got more than me! He shave his stomach to his head! But his beard very cool! Im going to keep it that way la. Anyway i think i need to buy some ladies' accessories. Like nose hair cutter. SO IMPORTANT. My cousin told me all his stories! And he advised me to buy gillete mach 3. Every men's bestfriend. He say 'DAMN GOOD'. So set, im going to buy it as soon as possible. haha. I and him were talking about shaving our armpits. so funny. So itchy by the way. boys never do it, if not have to put powder everyday and you might develop a rash.

Okay, down to cake. When we were singing my grandparents the birthday song. WAH, they were like super joyful la. I could never see myself smiling so much and being so joyful, they really enjoyed the moment. And i realised, my grandmother doesnt know her birthday. Only the year. So we celebrate her birthday either on Mother's day or my grandfather's birthday. BUT SHE STILL SO HAPPY! Wow, and when its my birthday im nothing but melancholic. see the difference. Anyway, we left and then here i am, blogging. Anyway, the cake really reminded me of some stuff. K nevermind, water under the bridge. Bye!

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Friday, July 15, 2005

Hey Trili, haha i hope i keep on growing (: And Hakeem set ah, gym. But like twice a week and we do power training and endurance training okay? better than strength. I just got back from my marks and i guess im pretty happy with it. I hope my results will get better and nothing but hard work will do the job. So guys lets dont give up!

Today's tuition was sooo tiring. i was so tired and i kept falling asleep during tuition even though mr gabriel is really a good and interesting teacher. Listening comprehension was today too, guess i really couldnt prepare much so i hope my answers are just correct.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

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Monday, July 11, 2005

PHEW! Im finally home. Today was pretty good. Good movie, good ending to the exams. Im pretty tired now. Anyway, we went out to watch -downfall, hitler. What an eye-opener. Suicide. Crazy, they all started shooting themselves and even poisoned their own children. Sawing of limbs, the reek of blood. Graphic. Pretty graphic. what a show to watch. Anyway im relly quite tired and i have to wake up early to play soccer so i have to go okay? bye boys

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

hello boys, i started the day of by watching hallmark. They have some good shows! Today's morning show was Tatoo, a love story. It was really not bad! About some tatoo artist and a woman who's relationship with a doctor wasnt going too well. Anyway to cut the long story short, the woman learnt to be stay true to herself and didnt get pressured by other people's opinions. Okay after the show i changed and went out to study with syen. Did some chemistry but i would say im pretty much prepared even though i need to brush on some topics but i dont believe in cramming and then confusing myself. Anyway we studied till about 330 then we decided to go exercise. Like what they say, a healthy body, a healthy mind.

Anyway we played soccer at pasir ris park. I was so sad la. i parked at defence the whole time. I never venture into the wilderness. Explore the open spaces. But i ole some boys 3 times, consecutively somemore! Anyway after soccer we went to eat some bak chor mee. Not bad, worth the money. RARH! i got a groin strain/pull. Its really quite bad. Then i put the deep heat on it. BUT MAJOR MISTAKE. I GOT SOME OF THE CREAM ON MY AHEM! SO HOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOT.Had to cool it with some water. didnt really help. So after a few minutes, it got better. Okay, time for me to stop. Pool World Championship! GO KUO GO!

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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Today started of quite okay. I woke up at about 7 and i couldnt get back to sleep even though my body ached and my muscles sore. I went down for my breakfast. It was a heavy one! Prawn mee, 4 breads sandwiched between 2 eggs. Yummy yummy. Anyway i was sooo full, i could only lie down on my bed and there i slept like an angel for 2 hours i think. I woke up still tired but i decided it was time to bathe and change for church.But i was soo sick because i slept half-naked and the fan was like zoomzoom, so fast!My leaky nose came out like a watering hose.Anyway,i bathed and i later decided to head out first to study then head to church after some hardcore studying. Went to downtown east to study some chemistry. So noisy! RARH! Anyway after awhile it was quiet again after the masses of students left. Back to studying, it was pretty satisfactory. Did metal reactivity and electroylsis.My nose was still leaking! So irritating. Gave up studying and talked to thaddeus when he came about 330. We headed to church, and WOW. Shirley, the pastor was from my old church. She was invited to preach today. I really was blessed today with the service. Going beyond our limits. Out of our comfort zones. Something i always know, but i neglected! Anyway, the most important thing was that i think thaddeus really was listening and i could sense the Holy Spirit stirring in his heart. Good and thank God. Going to ask him to go to the church i attended when i was in Sydney.Pray that he goes to church, if not it'd be meaningless and sad if he doesnt walk with God.

Anyway, after service i had a nice talk with syen.Though a short one, but it was meaningful and has always been. We two need to be christians not church-goers. Participants not Spectators. How guilty we two are and others of this. Anyway, we went home together and i was waiting for my bus and i was thinking about a friend and somehow God gave me an answer. :) amazing right. How wonderful it is to have a friend in Jesus. Okay, the bus came and i reached home. Had a nice talk with my mother about my walk with God. Told her some things i kept from her. Shared with her what God had planned for me. Realised what a blessed life i have. being in Hope of God Singapore really blessed me and set the foundation for me. And me backsliding was in his plans for me to do somethings for him in megalife.Somehow i thought i was losing control but now i realise how it fits like a jigsaw puzzle. The path all planned. I really thank God for everything.

I know this entry might seem alien coming from me. But look at the world. The purpose you live, the dreams you live and work your heart out for.When you lie beside the earth, everything will fade. The flowers, trees, buildings and your home will all fade. What you have built up, all fade away. And you come face to face with God. What can you say that you have done that you can take to God?Your money? your car? your condo? your credit card? You might say you live a morally right life, but surely you have been jealous or angry before. Trying to clean a dirty spot with a unclean cloth will not help. It will only smudge the stain, but it will still be there. Many say they know the way.But Jesus is the way. And in Jesus, forgiveness you will find, grace you will have and the underlying purpose in your life that you never knew you will uncover it step by step. Under the thick canopy you live under, God sees the times you crumple and he is waiting for the moment you reach out the hand that has always been there and let him work mightily in your lifes and you will find what you've been searching all your life. The joy, the contentment, the path and the uncondititonal love that you yearn for Store up treasures in heaven where moths do not come and destroy and thieves do not break in and steal.

Haha, bet you can see that even thought my day was so tiring and my flu was killing me, somehow God really showed me things that i really forgot. Anyway, chemistry is coming and syen needs alot of help. So we decided to go to airport to study tomorrow and i can give him some tuition.

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Friday, July 08, 2005

Today was such a tiring day! I woke up at 6 and i had only 4 hours of sleep! Anyway, syed wanted to reach there early to play soccer. So me, khyrul, hakeem and joel were there early. Kicked around and i got really really tired! No stamina at all. Anyway most of them came about 840 and the games began. The action, the lights and the hot bods of joel and hakeem! Talking about hot, the weather was really quite sorching
later about 1130. We finished about 12 because the muslims had to go for prayers. Actually the plan was to play pool after soccer and we'd head over to tuition in the evening but we decided to watch FANTASTIC ALBA 4!!!!! SHES SO HOT!



She is like really a pretty lady. Clement was like so sad la. She invisible. Couldn't see her. The flame torch is a hottie too. Should go and take a peep at his body.Anyway the movie ended and it was pretty cool. We soon decided to succumb to temptation and went to pavilon to play some kpool. Lucky the stick we found was pretty okay. Better that the ones i used there before. So rough and sticky.Anyway syen was playing the last game. He TOOK A LONG TIME. Like about some fifteen min. But he's so funny when he plays. Due to the long time spent trying to pot the black ball. We were late for tuition. !!!! The same person was there. Wow, she really has nice hair. I think she perm sials. confirm la. her hair is really nice and she dyed her hair i guess. Unless its natural and she's mixed-blood. Nice nice hair, i must proclaim again. At least now tuition not so boring.Some cedarian ah. Steam. cedar uniform looks nice anyway. Honestly we all my heart.

BUT the soup of the day really is the fact that today's the first time i've been out with joel. Hip Hip Hurrah! Sign of things to come. Played soccer with him in the morning too! First time in months. Literally months.First time i watch movie with him in months! Anyway it was fun and memorable even though we were dead tired with leaden feet and aching muscles.

[ Charles ] | 10:23 PM | Comment(s)

HE SO HANDSOME AND HIS SOCCER SO GOOD.

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

One more exam to go. Time to conquer them all. Any way i went to town after school with shaun and zhao. Going shopping with friends is stressful la. I dont like! Shopping is like a leisure. So i went back to shit and i slept like and angel. Anyway i woke up and had the urge to shop so i headed back to town. So relaxing, went to zara to pick up a shirt. But i found a pants that was nice too. BUT they dont have my size. I am becoming a fatty la.they only had size 30 and i am a 32. I think its because of my enormously pertruding backside that sticks out like sore thumb. Its so sad la. Anyway i spent quite a bit in there then i headed to topman!!!! 1/2 price!!! BUT the shirts dont fit me, but i really like some of their khaki pants so i bought another one. Nice nice. But another sad thing is that the pants that i bought last time is on sale now! $45 i think. i bought it at $63. Darn what a bummer and the timberland shirt i bought is 10 dollars cheaper!


Anyway, did gym with zhaoyao today after the exam. I am so sad. Do weights and pushups. My biceps,triceps,detroids and shoulders all the same. So demoralising. So irritating la.The only difference is that my triceps are as sore as my big butt la. ANYWAY Zhao is like so sexy now. He's the next CK model, replace ljungberg. He is Zhaoberg from now on.

Anyway, why must people go and bomb other people. Its really inhumane. Too much. All those innocent people. Anyway, if you dont know what i am referring to, i am referring to the multiple bombings of london's transport. Bomb here Bomb there. Its a shame to them.

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Thank God!!!!! I really didnt touch my literature much. I barely went through Feste and wrote down his quotes and that was all. I didnt even touch my KOTC. Oh my goodness. It was really not as bad as i thought it was. God really gave me peace of mind. No matter what i get, i really know that i did my best for the rest of my subjects, even though my lit needs more bucking up, i will be joyful :)

Its been a good day and it will get better and amath tuition. wah need to ask him all the stuff im not too sure of. Then friday is holiday! Going to play soccer and play some pool with that endearing syen. Then after that head for tuition and really focus for chemistry on monday! I must do my best :) Syen dont worry la, you're on the right track. Just dont be afraid to try papers even though you havent studied. Notes and Papers come hand in hand. Must practise and study. Thats what i've been doing for physics. And i know i wouldnt do as badly as i did in my mock.

2 more papers to go! Come on boys, lets press on. More will come but we will conquer. We came, We conquered. Some Cesaer quote i think. Soccer, im really craving for it! come on come on. i want to play for vj! quick!

Anyway, i feel so disappointed with myself. Broke fast yesterday. Sorry sorry. I must be disciplined like Job. He is really a committed fellow man. Okay im off to do some amath. Bye!

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Chinese Oral was so scary! I hope im granted of some sort, i really need a miracle! So scary to go inside the room. Anyway i went in and i did what i could and went out. Emath was okay. still a bit disappointed i misread a question and it cost me 7marks. just like that.

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