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Friday, October 22, 2004 Lie to meGive me something worth living for Tell me a reason worth fighting for Give me anything Anything to keep me breathing. Lie to me Tell me stories so beautiful An epic, or something so terrible That it makes me weep Cross out these days On your calendar It hurts me so much And I'm not quite sure I care anymore fug fug fug. okay. i really feel so sick now. stupid fever, stupid cold, stupid sorethroat. i guess i know why im sick today. yesterday i bathed in my uniform on.anyway. today was terok.real bad.i got back my results.wowow. i thought i would do better because i worked my butt off to prepare for this final year exam. guess things didnt turn out as i wanted. i didnt know and i never really felt so hard done by doing badly in exams. but this really struck me right between my nipples. anyway we decided to go to jacks place to eat and perhaps get some horrible numbers of our minds and the meal didnt make my throat any better but it certainly up my mood abit with queen lum and massy and with harry trying to finish the bottle of chilli. anyway. i went back home. took the stupid 32 which took so long to come. on the bus. i felt really weak, my throbbing headache left me trying to keep awake fearing i wont be able to wake up anymore like all the movies i watched "no dont close your eyes. dont give up" i managed to labour my way to the 42 bus stop and hopped on the bus. i reached home. turned on my comp. took a bath. plooped on my bed like how my shit drops into the toilet.anyway. i turned a dvd and the main actor was john travolta. anyway i watched it before but it still wasnt dry to me. anyway. about 2 hours later, the show ended and i turned it off and finally went to take a nap and i woke up about 2hours later.my headache still left me vulnerable. oh well. watched samurai X.ate my dinner, got a call.wondered why shit happens to nice people.tried to play winning eleven. but i didnt have the mood.got on my computer. the rain is pouring down. i can hear it through the music.wondering what im going to next now. i dont think all of you will bother to read to the end. boring entry. someone asked. so hows ruth. i said. good i guess. friends.doesnt matter. i realised i have been so critical. so spiteful. nothing like my true self.why why.we cant be so caught onto this hate. it will just devour us. we must make do with it. lonely. how lonely. When a man loves a woman Can't keep his mind on nothin' else He'd trade the world For a good things found Its taken much too long to get it right Would it be so wrong to maybe find someone A miracle And all you really need is everything you could never be And so you'd give it all for a miracle Is there a trace inside her face of a lonely miracle? And so you wait and lie awake for a lonely miracle You never really know what it is not until it goes And if it comes again its a miracle But what you miss is love and everything below and up above And could she bring it all a miracle? Its taken so long to get it right Could it be so wrong to maybe find someone A miracle |
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